So May will be brought to you by the letter M. M is for My fitness pal. Last January Brian and I decided that we were going to do my fitness pal, and when we stuck to it, we did really good and I lost 20 pounds in a little over 7 weeks. But with stress and life changes, I didn't stick to it. Sometimes I feel like that is the story of my life, not sticking to goals. Like going back to school to try and get into nursing school, and dropping out after a year.
But like I have been saying not this time. I can't quit. Or else it could be a matter of life or death. Extreme, yes, but needed to be said. So as I count my daily intake on my mobile app (oh how i appreciate technology), I hope to get to the point where I will no longer need to count every single thing I eat.
Now going back to the convenience of fast food/take out, I am honestly not a fan, because I love to cook. Hate to cook in my tiny apartment kitchen, which why when Brian and I were looking for our first house to call home, all I was interested in was the kitchen. It needed to be open, it needed to be big, it needed to have tons of counter space, it needed to be inviting, and it needed to be a place where I could work my magic and still see or be in sight of my family. And the home that we are moving into in a few short weeks houses a kitchen that meets all those needs. Yes, being able to decorate our spare room, and extra living room and den will be fun, just being in that kitchen is what I am excited about.
Brian will probably never understand why I want an actual dining room, and why I want a table to seat at least 8. I want to be able to cook and host dinners for family and friends. That's my thing, I have always associated food with happiness or with a way to feel better. That's how I got into this predicament. I can remember growing up and always being around the kitchen when my grandma was cooking, or going home now for the holidays and hanging around the kitchen. Its a place to gather, its a place to laugh and enjoy each others company.
I have faith that my dear husband will get it one day, and understand, that is what makes me happy. The time spent with friends and family and food. Now to just change the food. Make it good food. Make it healthy food.
I will also have a workout buddy, being so close to Brian's sister, so now there will not be an excuse to not work out. I have been reading up a lot, and everything suggests weights to burn more calories, now to just figure out how to lift correctly. Looks like you tube will become a near and dear friend of mine. As I am writing this, I am struggling to breath with my second sinus infection in a month, thinking how much more I would enjoy having a hard time breathing due to working out than being sick.
So back to May's new challenge, it does give me the opportunity to eat out, but a small meal somewhere could take up daily, and eating one small meal is not healthy. But at least the option is there for me. Just need to keep learning I can enjoy some of the things I like, just in smaller amounts. Now I wonder if there is a way to get 0 calorie wine...
